Its been Two

Sometimes songs say what our words can't.

Winning

"The world ain’t all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain’t about how hard you hit; it’s about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That’s how winning is done."

I have been hit by life, not only hard, but enough number of times to be lying face down. Life came in the veil of people I trusted the most, loved the most and wanted the most, only to punch me right into my face. Not once, not twice, but repeatedly....again and again and again and again.

It takes more than just courage to face people, when you yourself feel like a looser inside. The Life beats you to an extent that it seems next to impossible to even face up and dare to stand up again. After staying down for ages, you start gathering all your energy, to try and stand up again. You prepare yourself for one more fight...Just the last one....Do or Die. But, just as you are close to standing up again, ready to fight again, Life attacks your knees...making you fall down again. It knows very well your weakest areas and attacks them indiscriminately. It tests your patience and perseverance, pushing you to the well of Giving Up every time it hits. Giving Up is anyways the easiest way out. Its easy to forget about it and carry on with your mediocre life. Life attacks all spheres of you....It attacks you Physcially, Mentally, Emotionally and Professionally....You are bruised..

But, Champions are made up of a different mettle. No fight is the "Last Fight" for them. They know that in Life, to win its not important as to how hard you can hit, but how many times you can come back and hit. Even with a punctured heart and soul, all you see is your Goal. Your Dream. You know you are on the right path, when nothing can deter you from aiming what you want. No setback...No Loss...No Defeat makes you want to quit. All what failure does to you is fuel the fire burning inside for Winning. It is when your Heart,Mind, Body and Soul, all come together in a synchronization with your actions, that you realize you are now converted into an Indestructible Machine of War.

Today, I believe, the weakest part of me joined my quest for my ultimate goal. My heart is guarded now with strong enough walls to deter any attack on it. I have failed to make it stronger and the only way to guard is to build these walls around it now. Its guarded enough not to break down with attacks from Life now.

Its time to give another round of breath to my baby "Sunshine Forex". Its time to fight another battle....Another fight....not for anyone else....not to show anything to anyone....but for myself.....for the source of "Inspiration" of this goal.... To keep all the promises made...to myself...and to others....

The only thing on my mind now is "Winning"!!

Thank You

Thank you

To those of you who laughed at me, Thank you, Without you I wouldn't have cried

To those of you who just couldn't love me, Thank you. Without you I wouldn't have known real love

To those of you who hurt my feelings, Thank you. Without you I wouldn't have felt them.

To those of you who couldnt stand with me,Thank you. Without you I wouldnt have walked

To those of you who left me alone, Thank you. Without you I wouldn't have discovered myself.

But it is to those of you who thought I couldn't do it; it is YOU I thank the most, because without you I wouldn't have tried.

My first step towards success : www.sunshineforex.com

I never stopped to realize
How lonely I would be.....
I never thought the day would come
When you'd grow tired of me.......
Your voice was never sweeter
Than the day you said goodbye
You'll never know how much it hurt
Because I'm too big to cry


If I knew then what I know now
You'd still be kissing me
Instead there's someone else's lips
Where mine used to be
I say hello and wish you well
Each time I pass you by
But you'll never know how much it hurt
Because I'm too big to cry


You never looked so wonderful
As the day you walked away.....
I used to say... "I love you"
But........ that day....... I could not say
I can't forget you darlin'
No matter how much I try
You'll never know how much it hurt
Because I'm too big to cry

At Night

At night

At night I lay and think of you hoping my wishes and dreams come true

At night I wonder can this be the end, is this all that's left

At night I wish we could go to the way things were

At night I lay and cry about the things that happened and how it all is changing

At night I lay and think of us, I mean you and I

At night I realize there's no more us

At night I dream of us together again

At night I wish for us to be together again

But in the morning I realize it was all

At Night

INDIA?? Or IN Di end!!!!!

What has happened to this mankind I fail to understand at times. There seems to be more hatred in our hearts for people rather than love.Why is our society divided so much on the basis of caste,color,creed and religion?On one side we boast as of being one of the most secular nations of the world & on the other hand,we,as a nation state fail to happily co-exist with people outside our religion/region & caste.It was Raj Thackery dragging North Indians outof Maharasthra to woo Marathi voters which actuallymade me take notice of the situation. How easily,these people hold general public for ransomis disheartining to see. And, Im not saying this beacause Im a north Indian. Rather, I wasntaffected by any of their moves wehn I was in Mumbai, but I did see people suffering.Then came the Gujjar violence....or as they call it.."revolution"....These people sat on railway tracks in Rajasthan as a mark of their protest & caused discomfort to I dont know 1000s of people over weeks...And all this to get themselves classified as "backward"!!!!!Then came the agitation of SIKHS..over da killing of some members of the communityby some facade section of the same community(dats wat i perceived it to be).....they too followed similar ways of holding people to ransom...stopping local trains in mumbai,pelting stones at them, sitting on railway tracks in PUnjab & what not.....Again causing enough trouble to general people.....
What was the fault of a man who started from his home early morning to go to office,that he wasgreeted with Sikhs throwing stones at him at the next station?
I do not understand what was the point all these communities were trying to make by doing all this?
What a pity is it...We, as a nation are world's second fastest growing economy...We have probaly richest heritage and culture around the world....At a time when whole world is recognising us...at a time when US is ready to have a N Deal with us(though itmight be more of their interest)....its sad to notice that from inside we are more weaker than what we were at Independence...Its disappointing to see people fighting to be classifieds as "backwards" in a progressive nation. But I believe the reason for such a demand is grown out of political mismanagement rather than real cause.Who wants to be called backaward?But,its the real cream benefits that are provided to such communities through reservations which actually make people do dis.The benefit is not extended to people who really need it, but ratheris shared by people who already are affuluent enough.I fail to understand the reason for which an IAS officer's sonis given reservation. Once someone has become an IAS,he has already moved forward...y den such a priveledge to his son?Only because his father was backward???? what a shit is it?
Anyways,my whole point to write this post wasnt reservation.In fact, it was not at all reservation. It was aboutthe communal disharmony we are having in India today.Its about breaking of those tolernce limits we had within us...Its about hatred that we are living within our hearts today....
And to sum it all..... there was a comment from Balasahab Thackery to form Hindu Jehadi Units...What a shit!!!
I dont know why people like him malign Hindu religion. I m a Hindu and follow Sanatan Dharma..A dharma which teaches to accept,respect,help everybody and anybody without distinction over color,caste,creed,sex or religion....I dont believe in GOD, but still I believe I have more Hindutava in me rather than these people who have probably lost the real meaning of being a Hindu...

I wish somehow all this changes.....Imagine a world without any religion,caste or creed....May be its a dream for me...
But, I also know....my Dreams have nver ever come true!!!!!!

Red & White

Well this post is about a month old.It was written while I was in delhi last time.Where am I right now & why is all together a different story(which I may write some oder day)....
Somehow,couldnt post this dat day.Though it might be irrelevant today,but still thot of just posting it.


It was just another morning in my life. As usual i woke up on my right time to go to my office.Most of the time,I complete this 25Km journey on my bike. It is a lot of fun zooming ur bike on delhi roads.Though, many people wouldnt subscribe to my views, I feel its more of a personal choice and nature. I could write down i dont know how many reasons for my love of my bike ride. Those breaking speedy limits, those overtakes, those unsaid races wid fellow unknwon bikers....the list is just endless.
And the reason which makes my drive more pleasurable is about a 5 Km stretch on the Ring Road(which is at least 4 times wider than most of the roads in mumbai) on which I occassionaly hit 100Kmph,even during the high traffic time zones. Though its risky at times,but I guess of late I really dont care bout my life..(sounds creepy huh??!!!)...

Anyways, so it was just like any other day. As I went out of my room, I realised that it had rained last nite.The very prospect of drivin my bike on a cloudy mornin made me more excited for the travel.I hurried through my daily chores and was soon putting my bike into the first gear.It was a windy morning....... Cool breeze welcomed me as I moved out of my apartments.

I was already enjoying the weather,the ride... & was approaching favourite stretch of my journey....It was a little less crowded in terms of traffic that day.The traffic was moving swiftly and I was sure,Im gonna knock the 100 figure today again.
As per the normal practice, I started accelerating after a U turn, over took a few cars and was moving steadily untill, a huge WHITE innova came in my swift movement. I had to overtake it in order to move ahead.It was moving steadily & i titlted my bike towards its left side from behind in order to overtake....I had done this many times earlier and its not at all difficult to overtake cars from left.But, today was a different day...... .....


As I came to the left of the huge WHITE innova, I realised that right in front of me(about 40-50 mts away) a RED maruti had broken down....Its parking lights were blinking and one thing was for sure....IT WASNT MOVING......

I must have touched about 70-80Kmph by dat time.....the car was too close for my brakes alone to be effective enough to stop me from crashing into the car......The only way out for me was to not only apply full brakes, but also swing myself towards right as much as possible on a road which was still somewhat wet......I had to swing right,but the traffic behind me would have crushed me if I wud sway too much....Frankly, this thought never crossed my mind during that moment..its only in hindsight that I see it dat way....

With no oder option left, I applied brakes as well as turned a little on the right side(something like TITANIC did when it was avoiding to be hit by the iceberg!!!!)......my heart definately skipped a beat at that moment.......and within a few seconds, I realised that i was ALIVE!!! ( wow..wat a wonder man!!!)....I managed to avert the collision as much as 99%,with only my Tail light getting knocked off and by the time i fell,my bike was almost stationary....I escaped widout a single scratch on my body, though my already wrecked left knee(y do i call it wrecked is anoder story again!!!)...took some sort of shock......but none the less...i was able to stand on both my feet and bring a smile to my face...
WHOA!!!!!!!!!!!..wat an escape....


I can say now...i have seen DEATH as close as 2 seconds to me...he he he ......


And y did I use RED & WHITE in caps????well.....i realised later on that i was able to avert getting hit from behind because of the same WHITE Innova....coz, as i started moving towrds my right to avoid Red maruti, it also did da same and almost moved parallel to me,thus acting as a Guard......

And generally, RED signifies Devil...and WHITE da angels......was it just a coincidence dat day???

I hope it could be co related now........